WHO KNOWS WHATS UP

man,
i am just having one of those days.
I work up on the wrong side of the bed today and have been just f'ing everything up since then.

here is a brief account of what the day has held for me.

woke up
tried to get ready for a photo shoot I have to do at 4pm
was feeling weird - like something was wrong, while i was in the shower
40 min later got a call that I was supposed to be at a meeting in plymouth
went there, and got a talking to about a bill that i had sent - a legit bill
after that I headed home in sweltering 90 degree weather
tried to be productive
was mad about the fact that i haven't seen my friends in a long time
was madder that i couldln't use that energy to do some real work
got a phone call about the fact that I took the wrong pantone book home
had to pay 20 bucks to courier it back over there.
saw my sister for a brief moment and all i did was complain.

now i am sitting here trying to get some work done but it is nearly impossible.
I am counting the minutes til I have to be over at the photoshoot.

WTF!??!

all of this makes me unproductive and angry.

yesterday :
chris and i went out to eat at rice paper in linden hills.
the day before i spent about 2 hours running around linden hills with adam and francesca, remembering how great that little pocket of life is. We went to toy stores and relived our childhood(s) together.

Beet salad and free bread slices kept me going.
adam had icecream and spaghetti.
francesca also had icecream.

i, sadly, can't eat icecream without having some severe gastrointestinal disorder.
and when you're walking around a neighborhood you don't know it's a lot scarrier to think you're going to mess yourself than it is when you're near your house.

yesterday when we went to rice paper I was all excited to eat something that was asian fusion-y. It's such a cute little place. with weird hours. only open a couple hours a day for dinner. they had a great selection of fancy drinks behind the counter like coconut juice and guava juice.

Chris got a diet coke.

The food was not so great. whatever chris got tasted like a spicy version of a stick of bark. and mine was defnitely not as good as jasmine deli. overall a disappointment.

the day before when i was in the area we went to anthropologie. where i had a round of spastic purchasing-for-others. Every now and again I have this impulse to get presents for people I hardly know. I can't explain it much better than that. it's like I have this "perfect" idea. that I can't wait to give this thing to someone. Or maybe it's just that I see something and immediately decide that someone has to have it. These things i see make me think of special people and make me want to get things for them.

i'm sure that's just as weird on the receiving end.

The rest of our night was spent driving to walmart in egan and buying Dance Dance revolution 3 - playing that all night and then getting tired and looking up pictures of people on heroine on the internet. I spent a good hour absorbing the nikki sixx diaries online and looking at healing absess wounds.

Modblog has been slow these days so I need to find something to tide me over.

I touched the world last night

it's friday and i'm feeling weird again.
not a bad weird. just sleepy and a little anxious.
I think it's because I want some company and I can't have any.
I have enough work to keep me busy today - but work has been a little slower these last couple days.
Mostly just enough work to keep me on 40 hours but no more.

Sometimes I think about that book that I wanted to write and wonder if I'll ever pick it up again?
Other times I think about my friends and those things I think about them are interesting.

My hair is getting really long - my bangs haven't been cut in about 6 months, but for some reason I really like them today. I'm a greaseball with no purpose today - waiting for my black orchid to cool off - there's something magical about waking up today.
maybe it's because it's almost spring and I can feel the weather change.

it makes me anxious to be outside or to be active or something.
it's warm enough to wear my christian audiger shoes. These shoes are awesome and really ugly at the same time.
I will wear them with pride today because I am inspired to wear some comfortable shoes after last night's swing dancing episode.
I touched too many nervous men's hands last night. Afterward I went to the ladies room and disinfected my whole arms up to the elbow.

i believed that experience to be necessary - but it was bizarre, being in such close quarters with so many people. One after another. Some of them were really serious. others i wondered if they were there with their church group. or there to meet someone special. I was there to get some exercise and to get out and do something new.

It was good for me, i think.
I hope I don't come down with some dread disease now that I've touched everyone's hands.

things i want to do

write a book on blurb.com - 50,000 words in a month or something.
start an etsy site with chris
stop procrastinating
finish up the school year strong.
make mix cds for my students
find someone to show their work at the TG for december.

that's it for now.

fury.

thats all.

my color feelings.... right now

http://www.colourtest.ue-foundation.org/kolory/kolor.php

it's time for me to make a wish list

i know noone reads this - and sometimes it's just me that reads it,
but WTF, i don't care - i am going to post things that are awesome that i am putting on my semi-have-to-be-psychic-or-read-my-blog wish list for christmas...

whatever - here goes.



This is a totally amazing travel mug from patina


more later maybe...